THINKING, SAD AND FRUSTRATED

Today spent half the day at home with my dad and went to Parra shops to buy bui's present after Sam finished work at 2pm.

Then headed back to Sam's house and watch Pineapple Express on DVD which was funny i must say. Then grabbed dinner and headed over my brother's house to pick up something.

When i got home i got into the biggest arguement with my mum which made me swore. She made me so angry. Not like i haven't had enough on my mind.

Over the past couple of months things haven't been so great between me and Sam. It's not what it used to be. Seems like he has become distance from me and i'm trying to find out some answers. I want to make everything work out. I want it to be the way it used to be. Is it because of me? Am i doing something wrong? Am i not doing something? Have i done something to upset him? I know that sam haven't been himself lately and something is definately on his mind. He can't even open up to me and i'm his gf =(

I feel so sad. Sometimes i just sit here and think all night and it makes me cry. I really don't know what to think or do. I just want us to be happy. His the love of my life and I love him dearly.

Lately i been pressured by my mum with alot of things. Sometimes i just want her to shutup and let me do my thing. I am a women and i can make my own decisions. It seems like she wants to rule my life and tell me what to do all the time. After all it's my life and i do things the way i want to. I've just had enough of all of this. My head is ready to explode ='(